today i am quite moody... mayb of the weather and thunder, but well, doesnt really make any difference to me since i am always under the roof.
slowly, i shall analyse why i am feeling this way..
1. mayb because i got to start sch in one month's time.. and the holidays will be over and i will have to leave home and i will miss my parents and i have to make new friends and i have to adapt to that SO foreign environment once again.. well, i always tell myself to be optimistic.. really..
so, from this moment, i will tell myself that i should feel glad that sch's starting and i am not going to waste my brains away.. and i have the chance to study what i want and have a bright future.. and i am gonna be independent and be strong when i leave home.. and since my sis is with me, i will be less homesick.. and i can make new friends and learn another new culture.. oh man.. i must believe in what i said in order to have a happy day tmr.. well, at least i will try..
2. i am starting to pack and prepare for the stuff to bring to UK.. and i hate the feeling of packing... coz it's like i have to pack everything away from home,which also includes me.. and den my home will be quiet, empty and joyless without us around.. and my parents will abandon that OH SO DUSTY and QUIET roomss that i am using now.. nonetheless, i am quite used to this.. leaving home again... but i guess this is the reason why i cherish my family so much. i couldnt imagine the kind of relationship we will have if we never leave home when we were young..mayb we see one another everyday and treat them as if they are transparent.. or start an arguement ridiculously... haiz. i will miss my parents and i will spend more time with them when i am still in HK..
third reason why i am so moody coz i haven been out for this week.. and most of the time on the bed watching dvds and eating.. and probably think of all the negative things..
to make tmr a happier day, i will sleep early tonight and meet my dad for lunch tmr and shop around.. shopping makes my spirits HIGH.. haha.
so, i should be more optimistic in my counting down too.. i shall change the counting to:
25 happy days with family---left and 25 days more for a new, meaningful and challenging life!
and yes, i am motivating u too michele!
16 sunny, happy days with family and 16 days nearer to a bright future!
