Did you ever feel that everything was so right in your life you'd have nowhere to go but downhill?
I was thinking of this question for quite some time, and i realised that i had never felt this way. Mayb i dun feel this way because i am always not satisfied.. mayb i dun feel this way because i dun appreciate the beautiful things happening around me.. or even because i do many things blindly just to go uphill.. Nothing is so right and i just take it all for granted.. like i seriously deserve it.. I think i should step back and think what will be sooo right in my life.. hmm. mayb not now bcoz i am still far from my perfect dream.. having a career that i will enjoy most, having a loving family that i feel so comfortable in and seeing my dear parents enjoying life.. especially my dad. I hate to see him work so hard without caring for his health just bcoz of her daughters' future.. yesss, so now, going uphill and through the process, i promise that i will give more attention to the experiences and not just the results. Feeling very regretful for not doing so in jc and especially in sec sch.. =/ nvm, just very random thoughts.. dun bother understanding wad i wrote.. hahaaa.. coz i dun really understand when i read it =p heh
okies, taking ISAT test on thurs.. ISAT will test my critical thinking and reasoning.. haha.. so i cannot prepare for it.. firstly, there is no past yr questions and secondly, i dun have time.. it's on THIS THURSDAY and i know the test date just today.. lols. wish me all the best man and also hope that i can still think after not using my brains for so long.. haha..
yup, and i haven decided which course to choose for the unis in singapore.. dunno la.. it's so competitive in singapore.. the courses that i wanna take need like at least 3 A.. and a decent GP grade... haha. I NO HOPE for these courses la! nvm.. will apply to other less competitive ones.. haha. well, at least i know that i will study science related courses like biochem, chem, but nth related to physics.. haha. i DUN like physics! okies, i still have 2 weeks or so to think abt it.. so no hurry.. yupp.. will make a wise decision =)
Today, i am full of thoughts.. hahaha..and one thing i think is very true for me.. I seriously have difficulties expressing my true inner self to people.. not that i dun want to, but sometimes, it's just difficult.. see.. i cant even express how i am feeling now.. ok.. mayb is my poor language skills.. =p but sometimes i really dun speak my true feelings.. mayb i dun dare to show my true feelings because i am not confident enough to do so.. or mayb i am afraid of rejection.. i dunno. i am trying to overcome this fear in my heart.. haha.. another super random thought.. but i think some close friends of mine will understand =) ehz.. haha.. if close friends also dun understand, den FORGET IT! heh heh
okies, this entry is full of my rubbish thoughts~ but still, i am gonna publish this! I GOT UPDATE MY BLOG HOR! =)
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